YEAR 2012.

I thought i would get the chance to go to places that i do not have time to go to before holidays but it seemed like i've been staying at home for the past month holiday.

I received the news that my uncle was diagnosed with cancer around mid-November and since then, my dad, which is his brother was busy going in and out of the hospital and when my uncle was discharged, my aunt took him into her house , where my grandmother lives, to take care of him so then my dad often visited him at SengKang. And i had to sleepover my grandma's house to help my aunt and her with the chores while busy taking care of my uncle. Sadly, my uncle passed on on November 29th and it was a great loss for our family and relatives as well as his collegues from Mediacorp and his school's friends. It all happened too fast. So i had to stay at my grandma's house after everything was settled that day until now.

But i understand the reason behind it.

Therefore, there's no time to go out as a family and i can't do what i want. In addition, my parents are having money tight. I wanna go Gardens By The Bay , Marina Barrage , etc. I really want to travel around Singapore. I want to see the Raffle's Statue and go to a museum ( but i know it'll involve money too ) . 

And i have yet to get my new battery for my phone... I am sad. I feel like i think too much.....of the unnecessary stuffs maybe?

This year, i've been thinking alot about the hardships my parents are going through and a few other stuffs. Probably i'll blog about it next time.





I shall end this post with.........

 

 

 

A high-5 maybe? (:

Palette Of Feelings.

Have you ever had feelings for someone?
       Don't deny it. You have had.


When it comes to love, i've always believe in this ; " If it's meant to be, it will happen. "

I may still be young but sometimes i wonder who will i ended up with in the future. I can't list down the factors of my ideal guy, obviously, but i what i can say is that i just want someone to love and accept me for who i am truly and someone that has the brains.
 
I've observed from Facebook that some people with the same age as me can have a relationship with the opposite gender but break up after a few months or even days and after that got a new partner.

How can someone's feelings change that instant?  What's love to them? Aren't they tired of playing with their own feelings or rather get confused with  their  own feelings?









 




"Feelings come and go like clouds in a windy sky. Conscious breathing is my anchor.” 

Don't bother finding love during your teens. It's alright to just have a crush though. You may not understand what love really is now. Perhaps we'll understand what love is as we are growing up. Don't play with love if you don't want love to play you back.



“The only love that I really believe in is a mother’s love for her children.”

I do not want to get confuse with ' do i really like him as in like the type of person he is or only admiring his face' and 'i don't believe in feelings that can change instantly' . To be frank, i am unsure with my feelings sometimes.

I like someone from my school and he's one year older than me. I am not very close with him. I tried to get to know him better but it's kind of hard to chat with him so there's quite a distance between us.  I often saw him last year in the hall and he saw me too but we didn't know each other yet until this year on middle February.

He's a nice and good-looking guy and i like the way he talk to me. I get the chance to see  him  by either coincidence or during our CCA only.

Often i tell myself that it's just 'like' .

I believe we'll be more socialize as we grow up and we won't know if we'll meet the right one.

In addition, i'm still studying so i think it's right to put this 'like' aside first and i'll let fate goes in the way  plus, i think feelings may fade as time goes by. But i can't deny that i still think about him and i wish he knew.

                             My love story is in God's hands anyway.

Love will find its way...

MONEY.

 Most of my circle of friends come from a well-to-do family. I admit that i do feel envious  towards them.  It's very hard for me to get what i want and that pisses me off at times. At times i can't bear to ask my dad for money as i know my parents are always having money issues. No one is helping them. My dad has to support 6 people in the house and both of my grandparents are diagnosed with illness.

I wanna go shopping badly. I need to shop for clothes.  It's sad to see the hardships my parents are facing but i believe i should be thankful that i don't live in starvation and i still have clothes to wear. BUT i still do whine when i want something...

I often wear the same grey top whenever i go out because the clothes that i have are either not my size or not suitable for me...

                                                           ~

Money is everything but money cannot buy love and happiness. It may bring joy to people( shopping etc.) but it'll be only for a while.

 

 

 

 

What's the point having money but you're not happy and is always unsatisfied with your life?

 

I wish i could help my parents. All i can do is to work hard in my academics and achieve good grades. That'll make them happy.

AIMS.

I've mentioned that i'm gonna type out more about me as i type out my blogs right? So i'll be typing out my goals tonight. (:

2013 :

1. An A1 for History for all exams.
2. A B3 for English.
3. An A2 for E Math, both Chem & Bio & Art.

I didn't manage to get into Pure Sciences class but i'm thankful for what i get anyway. I must strive harder next year. I can't be distracted with the external factors. Like watching K-pop dramas everyday? That's a distraction. Ha ha, i must cut down the amount of time i use my laptop. I must know my limits and priorities.

Long-term Goals?

I'm aiming for JC but it's gonna be hard for me as i'm taking combined science and i need to get lesser points for my Os but i believe as long as i do my very best, i can go for what i aimed.

I'm quite an average student although i'm in an Express stream. I must put more effort in my academic especially my Mathematics. Most importantly, my attitude towards learning.


All i need is words of encouragements. I am self-motivated sometimes but we are humans and we too need encouragements especially when we're at the edge of giving up or when we are in low spirits.

 

 

Keep moving forward. (: 

LOOK AT ME.

 

 

 

 

Haha, i've grown up very fast. So...what should i blog about? Hmmm.

 

Alright.

 

I wish i could be a kid again. I think life's easy as a kid; carefree. Don't you think so? But i'm also eager to grow up because i want to know what's life being an employed adult and i will know what i really want in my life.

 

I just want to have a meaningful life. Yes, i know living has its parts and parcels but that's what life is. Have you ever wonder what's your purpose in life? I had. 

 

As i'm growing up, i can't wait to know what will become of me. What will be my future like? Only God knows. But, i've plans for myself.

                                     

" Don't dream your life,

                                          Live your Dreams .    "  

 

 

I'm ambitious. When i was a kid, i love pretending being a teacher and i would ask my brother to be my "student" . I love teaching but i've not that much patience with little kids. Haha. I have passion in History. I love learning about wars, dynasties and the history of Nazi etc. So, i've planned to become a history teacher or maybe something that have relations with Humanities. I'm also thinking of taking up a phsycology course.  I want to have a degree cert. on phsycology or a higher level than degree on behalf of my dad if ever he can't manage to continue. I want to help those humans out there.



But Always remember , 

 

 

I'll update this blog prolly later this evening. Have a great day/night humans wherever you are. (:

 

 

 

                                                     BYEBYE. Xx



 

Hi. Hey. Hello.

                              It's Just Me. 

First of all, let me introduce myself.

 

WHO AM I?

 
Am Iffah.

I came into this world on the 17th of May at Mount Elizabeth.  I'm quite an out-dated person. I've no hobbies but i like to laze around and read my book. One of my favourite is 'If you could see me now' . You humans should read this book! (: My dad's the only breadwinner and i'm living with 7 people in the house.

1. I love them forever. 
2. Favourite idol. My old time favourite is You Belong With Me. 
3. I'll order this everytime i go for Mac.
4. I can watch this many times. Ha ha. 

             I don't really have any favourite english movies cause' i love them all. LOL.