YEAR 2012.

I thought i would get the chance to go to places that i do not have time to go to before holidays but it seemed like i've been staying at home for the past month holiday.

I received the news that my uncle was diagnosed with cancer around mid-November and since then, my dad, which is his brother was busy going in and out of the hospital and when my uncle was discharged, my aunt took him into her house , where my grandmother lives, to take care of him so then my dad often visited him at SengKang. And i had to sleepover my grandma's house to help my aunt and her with the chores while busy taking care of my uncle. Sadly, my uncle passed on on November 29th and it was a great loss for our family and relatives as well as his collegues from Mediacorp and his school's friends. It all happened too fast. So i had to stay at my grandma's house after everything was settled that day until now.

But i understand the reason behind it.

Therefore, there's no time to go out as a family and i can't do what i want. In addition, my parents are having money tight. I wanna go Gardens By The Bay , Marina Barrage , etc. I really want to travel around Singapore. I want to see the Raffle's Statue and go to a museum ( but i know it'll involve money too ) . 

And i have yet to get my new battery for my phone... I am sad. I feel like i think too much.....of the unnecessary stuffs maybe?

This year, i've been thinking alot about the hardships my parents are going through and a few other stuffs. Probably i'll blog about it next time.





I shall end this post with.........

 

 

 

A high-5 maybe? (:

Palette Of Feelings.

Have you ever had feelings for someone?
       Don't deny it. You have had.


When it comes to love, i've always believe in this ; " If it's meant to be, it will happen. "

I may still be young but sometimes i wonder who will i ended up with in the future. I can't list down the factors of my ideal guy, obviously, but i what i can say is that i just want someone to love and accept me for who i am truly and someone that has the brains.
 
I've observed from Facebook that some people with the same age as me can have a relationship with the opposite gender but break up after a few months or even days and after that got a new partner.

How can someone's feelings change that instant?  What's love to them? Aren't they tired of playing with their own feelings or rather get confused with  their  own feelings?









 




"Feelings come and go like clouds in a windy sky. Conscious breathing is my anchor.” 

Don't bother finding love during your teens. It's alright to just have a crush though. You may not understand what love really is now. Perhaps we'll understand what love is as we are growing up. Don't play with love if you don't want love to play you back.



“The only love that I really believe in is a mother’s love for her children.”

I do not want to get confuse with ' do i really like him as in like the type of person he is or only admiring his face' and 'i don't believe in feelings that can change instantly' . To be frank, i am unsure with my feelings sometimes.

I like someone from my school and he's one year older than me. I am not very close with him. I tried to get to know him better but it's kind of hard to chat with him so there's quite a distance between us.  I often saw him last year in the hall and he saw me too but we didn't know each other yet until this year on middle February.

He's a nice and good-looking guy and i like the way he talk to me. I get the chance to see  him  by either coincidence or during our CCA only.

Often i tell myself that it's just 'like' .

I believe we'll be more socialize as we grow up and we won't know if we'll meet the right one.

In addition, i'm still studying so i think it's right to put this 'like' aside first and i'll let fate goes in the way  plus, i think feelings may fade as time goes by. But i can't deny that i still think about him and i wish he knew.

                             My love story is in God's hands anyway.

Love will find its way...